PeOple make fun Of giirls wiith eatiing Or weiight prOblems when they dOn't knOw them Or understand them.But when yOu're One Of thOse giirls struggliing wiith an eatiing disOrder...iit hurts.It hurts tO hear peOple say that we're stupid giirls and iit's useless.But they dOn't understand and they dOn't want tO.They can't see that iit's a disease,a sickness that can driive One crazy.
When i shOve my fiingers dOwn my thrOat i dOn't thiink abOut puttiing myself iin danger.I thiink abOut the peOple i'm lettiing dOwn.I thiink abOut my parents whO are wOnderiing hOw they cOuld have a daughter liike me.I thiink Of the prOmiise i made to my friend tO never do iit agaiin and i brOke iit.I thiink abOut the shriink whO acted liike she cOuld help me but i dOn't even trust her.I thiink abOut all the peOple whO've triied to be kiind tO me and tell me everythiing wiill be Ok.But they dOn't understand that nOthiing wiill be all riight.That i wOn't feel thiis paiin fOr much lOnger iif someOne dOesn't cOme alOng and turn my liife arOund.Cause i wOn't be able to gO on liike thiis fOr ever...One day iit wiil all stOp...I wiill make iit stOp...
When i shOve my fiingers dOwn my thrOat i dOn't thiink abOut puttiing myself iin danger.I thiink abOut the peOple i'm lettiing dOwn.I thiink abOut my parents whO are wOnderiing hOw they cOuld have a daughter liike me.I thiink Of the prOmiise i made to my friend tO never do iit agaiin and i brOke iit.I thiink abOut the shriink whO acted liike she cOuld help me but i dOn't even trust her.I thiink abOut all the peOple whO've triied to be kiind tO me and tell me everythiing wiill be Ok.But they dOn't understand that nOthiing wiill be all riight.That i wOn't feel thiis paiin fOr much lOnger iif someOne dOesn't cOme alOng and turn my liife arOund.Cause i wOn't be able to gO on liike thiis fOr ever...One day iit wiil all stOp...I wiill make iit stOp...
